all i need is you~

i do not know anymore..
what is it that you're doing?
maybe i should award myself with a trophy saying ' the best clown impersonator'
the one who cheers people up except himself,
i'm crying behind the mask but;
you could not tell.

 i tried not to torture myself,
tried to look and take things positively;
tried not to open the wounds that was carved by some ungrateful bastards ages before,
but, there's always the "B" word..
i could not help it,
you seem so innocent,
why couldn't you be a little more sensitive,
like i'd always did..
i'm bleeding inside
and;
still you could not tell..

honestly, i do not know who to blame;
my ego? my secrecy?
should i tell? should i complaint?
should i wait? should i rush?
there is this big freaking question mark on top of my head;
i couldn't figure it out..
baby, i want to forget everything but stain you in mind,
please..i'm begging you;
do not let me steer away from you
because seriously i am,
all i need is a second from your hours,
all i need is you~