a new song!!!

alrite!!! its been like ages since i composed a song..actually i dont even had any attention or plan on writing a song when i composed this new song. haha.

its called the "The Proposal"
i got inspired while watching an anime entitled "Midori Days"

 

its about this girl, midori who fell in love with this guy, seiji. but midori was too shy to tell seiji that she actually likes him. and blah blah blah..go watch it urself ahaha..so after that i came up with a song..

nyways the lyrics are, 

Verse 1: 

i've been watching you,

for so long,

and it has been growing inside me.

hard for me to summon all the courage in me,

to tell you how much i feel.

Pre-chor:

now that i've all the guts in me,

why won't you stay,

and listen to what i'm gonna say.

Chorus:

the beating of my heart, 

has been beating up for you,

and it dances as the melody resounds it way to you,

i've hold it for too long,

and it's time for it to be told,

just so you know,

that i love you.

Verse 2:

i've been dreaming that we would stay together,

holding hands, talking about every matter.

gazing at the stars but i still wonder,

would it be the same if 

i never asked

Pre-Chor

Chorus

Bridge:

yes, i confess,

i literally nearly gave up,

without even telling you the truth,

but someone once said,

feelings won't go across 

just by being felt...

Chorus:

the beating of my heart, 

has been beating up for you,

and it dances as the melody resounds it way to you,

i've hold it way too long,

and it's time for you to know,

that i've fallen for you,

and i love you.

Outro:

all i want to hear from you,

is "yes, i do"

well..yeah..haha..those are the lyrics.

emm, havent done the video yet..busy with stuffs XD but soon i'll post it in facebook and in here too.

do not worry! ^^

so till then 

so long peepz!

that should be you~

that should be me~

a song by justin bieber...to tell u guys the truth im not at all a fan of that guy but theres sumthing in this song (that should be me) which has actually meant something to me. haha

well, no hiding anything but i myself had experienced the situation mentioned in the song. how it really sucks! haha

the chorus:

That should be me,
Holdin' your hand,
That should be me
Makin' you laugh,
That should be me,
This is so sad,
That should be me,
That should be me,
That should be me,
Feelin' your kiss,
That should be me,
Buyin' you gifts,
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
Till you believe that,
That should be me...

i like the chorus part..i mean its just sad u know. well, imagine like you're walking somewhere or anywhere u want n suddnly *bam* u encounter your ex-love partner, with some-friggin-one!? how everything turns upside down. your world, your heart, your ice cream which you're enjoying while walking not expecting that incident well, practically evrything. shait! holy bull crap! u'll start profaning! hahaha...n then u start singing the chorus part..wooo..sad case i tell u! agonizing moment! 

honestly, i havent experienced the "that should be me" moment but im not surprised that i will soon. propbably. i dont know. *sigh*

anyways..yeah.

that should be you holding my hand~ 

peace out peepz!!

out of no concern~

well
one step leads to another it seems
an act of your pathetic confusion spits venom right in my face
scarring what's not even there
your little soldiers or what you call your daughters or heir
are obviously doing the same
they're still small and short and clumsy you see
and only manage to reach my lower part of the body
however
the amount of it was enough to paralyze an elephant
i did
please stop
i'm begging you
stop
can't you read between the lines or
easier
between my fingers?
you selfish devil.

..well

i know what u mean..

Happy New Year!!!!

lol, it's like 8th of January already but it's not too late to wish Happy New YEAR to all of you out there!!!!!!

haha, it's 2011 and you can hear people shouting out their new resolution everywhere..
"i wana study really hard this year!!"
"i wana buy a car this year!!!"
"i wana get married!!"
this and that..lol

mine? well..i don't know..probably same as everyone else's that is "i wanna score good marks!" so typical isn't it? lol well, there is another one though but it's a secret..haha

so i'ma list out some success or things that i achieved and things that i failed to achieve..here goes

~~2010~~

Achievements
-get my 'P' license
-get straight A's in SPM
-met new friends in KMK
-got sponsored my MARA
-had a girlfriend
-went out a date with her
errr many more i guess...haha

Failure (major ones)
-didnt get to go to the place i wanted (Russia)
-didn't get 4.0 for my final exam (3.93 instead)
eh, pretty much that's all..i mean major ones..hahaha

so new year..i hope everyone could like strive harder this year, make it better than the previous one.
=)
*Peace Out*

all i need is you~

i do not know anymore..
what is it that you're doing?
maybe i should award myself with a trophy saying ' the best clown impersonator'
the one who cheers people up except himself,
i'm crying behind the mask but;
you could not tell.

 i tried not to torture myself,
tried to look and take things positively;
tried not to open the wounds that was carved by some ungrateful bastards ages before,
but, there's always the "B" word..
i could not help it,
you seem so innocent,
why couldn't you be a little more sensitive,
like i'd always did..
i'm bleeding inside
and;
still you could not tell..

honestly, i do not know who to blame;
my ego? my secrecy?
should i tell? should i complaint?
should i wait? should i rush?
there is this big freaking question mark on top of my head;
i couldn't figure it out..
baby, i want to forget everything but stain you in mind,
please..i'm begging you;
do not let me steer away from you
because seriously i am,
all i need is a second from your hours,
all i need is you~

The Four Chambered Mood~~ XD

*breath in, breath out*

its like 4.31pm rite now and i finally decided to update my blog. its been ages since i updated mine. lolz. kinda busy with college stuffs and all annnnnd im kinda lazy to update things here. hahahaha. so what triggered me to update my blog all of a sudden??

well, i was just browsing the web for poems the other day (to get inspired..for what? can't tell u now haha!) and i came across this poem "Please don't let me Go" by Heather Farley.
basically u can guess what kind of poem is this rite? lol..a love poem. it's about a long distance relationship poem  and how the 'writer' is telling to his/her beloved to wait and don't give up on the relationship yet.

*smiles*

when i read the poem, i remembered back when i had my first long distance relationship. haha, good times good times.

sigh.. lots of people told me that long distance relationship is hard to maintain n all..but to me, i mean..its not about the external factors that matter rite?? i mean even short distance relationship can rupture just like that.
hence, it's the feelings that matters..its how both of u're meant to be..distance doesn't have anything to do with the relationship. sometimes it drives me mad when someone says "dude, it won't work out between u and her".. *rolls eyes* we never know till we try..

now, contented with what i have..haha..a perfect relationship (a long distance relationship though)..
i'm extremely sure that this will really last..^^ just hoping for the best *keeping my fingers crossed*